Demi Lovato returned to The Ellen Show – she opened up about her past struggles with eating disorders and gets candid about her 2018 drug overdose.

 

 

 

When Ellen shared with Demi, “So you’ve been honest about your eating disorder.  I just learned today that when you came for the last six years —  you’re no longer with this team — but there was a team that used to handle everything before you got here. They were told to hide all of the sugar and put everything away so that when you got to your dressing room, even backstage, there was no sugar anywhere near. Did you know that was happening?”

 

Demi responded with, “I didn’t know that until today too.  But I lived a life for the past six years that I felt like wasn’t my own. Because I struggled really hard with an eating disorder, yes, and that was my primary problem and then it turned into other things, but my life, I just felt was —  I hate to use this word, but I felt like it was controlled by so many people around me.  If I was in my hotel room at night, they would take the phone out of the hotel room so I couldn’t call room service, or if there was fruit in my room they took it out because that’s extra sugar. We’re not talking about brownies and cookies and candies and stuff like that, it was fruit.”

 

 

 

During part two of Demi’s interview, Ellen asked about her overdose, which happened in July of 2018.  This is what Demi revealed:

 

“I have to preface it with the fact that I got sober at 19.  So I got sober at an age where I wasn’t even legally allowed to drink. I got the help that I needed at the time, and I took on the approach of a ‘one size fits all’ solution, which is sobriety.  My eating disorder got worse and worse, and I asked for help and I didn’t receive the help that I needed …. So I was stuck in this unhappy position and here I am sober and I’m thinking to myself, ‘I’m six years sober but I’m miserable. I’m even more miserable than I was when I was drinking. Why am I sober?’ I sent a message out and I reached out to the people that were on my team and they responded with, like, ‘You’re being very selfish, this would ruin things for not just you but for us as well.’  When I heard that — my core issues are abandonment from my birth father as a child — when they left, they totally played on that fear and I felt completely abandoned, so I drank. That night, I went to a party and there was other stuff there, and it was only three months before I ended up into the hospital with an OD.  Ultimately, I made the decisions that got me to where I am today, it was my actions that put me in the position that I’m in.  I think it’s important that I sit here on this stage and tell you at home, or you in the audience, or you right here that if you do go through this, you yourself can get through it, you can get to the other side … As long as you take the responsibility, you can move past it and learn to love yourself the way you deserve to be loved.”

 

 

 

 

The last time Demi was on the show, Ellen played ‘Who’d You Rather?’  It got to a point where Demi continued to choose Rihanna out of Ellen’s list of celebs …

 

 

 

Did Rihanna ever reach out to Demi following the show? Find out below.

 

 

 

Demi will return to The Ellen Show tomorrow where, for the first time, perform her brand new single, I Love Me.

 

 

And since it is Thursday, here’s a throwback for ya from Demi’s very first appearance on The Ellen Show.

 

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